Bye Bye Baby

Thursday morning I dropped Allen and Esme off at the airport, ready to fly to Utah.  I sent them with lots of breastmilk and instructions/advise for getting through the airport alone with a baby :)  I bawled my eyes out, worse than when I dropped her off at daycare for the first time, because this is the first time that I've not been with Esme for more than 12 hours.  I'll fly out on Friday night but she'll be sleeping by the time I get in so I won't see her awake till Saturday morning - almost 48 hours after I left her.  I think it might be a little different if I wasn't still nursing her and now all the double pumping sucks!  I miss my baby!